Uit did wonders to lift my spirits!

Hi Gb,
Well I know what it is like to have bad anxiety, I used to take the meds for depression/anxiety until I read the side effects....anxiety, depression and worse!! I know what you mean when you say they dull your senses. What helped me was meditation/breathing exercises, and magnesium supplements, make sure you are not overdoing caffeine and soft drinks. Anyway Im not a doctor and this is a magic forum!

You have been told you are good and the manager of the shop wouldn't send customers over to you if you were not good, so well done for entertaining those customers...here comes the but..if you keep putting yourself down no amount of practice will give you the confidence you need.
Be careful what words you use and think, like not good enough or nearly killed me or disabled, as I have heard lately that words are like spells, and your subconscious will just remember you saying "Im not good enough, its going to kill me and I am disabled", just trying to convey the power of subconscious thoughts
Maybe you could find someone qualified in Hypnotherapy to reduce the anxiety, that may interest you to find out more about mentalism etc.
Ok I am going now, Didn't mean to lecture you, just giving my tuppence worth

Thank you. Hypnosis was a bad idea as I resisted every suggestion. However once I can get going and get good feedback from the person Im performig for I seem to just get into it and forget about my nerves. Its just very difficult to get over that initial hill. But if I fail I take it really hard and personally.